“here it comes the end of the honeymoon phase”Not so actually, and hold up with those assumptions we aren’t married yet, at least in a legal sense, in a biblical sense according to my future live in PhD and in hearts, minds, honor, yes, but the wedding still more than a month away.  Yes, there…

This man!!!!He asked, I said yes.  It took 23 years to recognize what was in our faces all along. 1.5 years for him to get up the nerve to kiss me.And 3 months to ask me for forever. But I knew before it that he was the one person in my life I could ever…

We hear it all the time that first healthy relationship after a toxic one is hard. I honestly looked at the people telling me that with skeptisicism because I admired what they had. Wanted to find that peace in a relationship, find that person who stands by me - you know the one that comes…

Heavy is the mind that ponders the level of every piece of everything. Come to me with your burdens and lay them in my hands where I will keep them safe. Understand that you do not love a meek soul frightened by your darkness, but one who will stand with you before your demons at…

My birthday was this week, 37, I am not sure how I feel about this age, I am no longer young, but I am not quite at old yet either. Last year, on my birthday I was in the middle of struggling to find my feet again- months before I'd been forced to start life…

I know you know that I know, that I see you, the whole of a story lingering behind you raw and withering as you watch them rewrite it to cut you down and cut you out. An unfair addition to the heartbreaking bombs already ruthlessly delivered.   I wish I could tell you I didn’t understand…

“I’m sorry. I hate to feel like I’m using you, but, that’s what I want.” That’s the story of my life with men, I have been used by them since I was 8 years old in varying ways. It’s also a recurring theme lately which has me running from the idea of being on the…

Sometimes, silence resonates, but the silence of a victim can also be dangerous. https://youtu.be/6zNHZkT3DXk?feature=shared I’ve been wrestling back and forth with this internally for a year, there is dignity in never telling your side of the story, “Let them” poem comes to mind, but when the silence is from a victim of abuse, there is…

My feelings were hurt, first instinct, swallow, hide, don't react, don't let it show, bury it in a hole. Everything's fine, perfect, great. I sat like that for two days, and it was, oh this is the high horse, oh everything will be fine if I can just keep my mouth shut. Wait, What the…